Been a while sense i blogged, lets see, what have i done, well i have done nothing. Just watched movies, and sat talkin to my love. I went to the grocery store today and then the Dollarstore, got some M&M's minis. i may clean my room tonight or tomorrow because my boy may visit sooner then planned. but right now were in a little fight, i always accidently word things wrong, its so hard, i mess up all the time, but i know he understands, just takes time to catch on. So this weekend or the next week i wont be bogging because i will be with him, but i will tell you all about it when i come back to blog, i will make one more post before he comes, if he comes, hopefully. well bye tell next time

My Day

Hey, so my day. Where to start, well lets start with this morning. I got woken up for school, put on regular day clothes like the rest of the world. Did the usual, you know, every morning stuff. finally headed to school, took me like 20 mins today to walk there, was a chilly yet comfortable morning walk. I walked and facebooked the whole time tell i got to school. finally got there and went to my first period, Parenting, not even 10 minutes i was asking to go to the bathroom, so i left, went to the bathroom, had this huge pain and was bleeding while peeing and no, it wasnt my period. So i went to the office and tried contacting my mom, called 3 times but no answer, finally i txt her and she replyed, mom called the school back and pulled me out. She picked me up and then i was rushed into the hospital. i also had serious chest pains like my heart was gunna burst. I was told it was a possible bladder infection. yay what joy. so went home, relaxed and spent the rest of the day on the computer talking to my man. called him, watch the Little Mermaid 3 and now im heading to bed. there was my day, or a summed up day. ill post another tomorrow night. son ill hopefully have a schedual.

First Post: A Little History About Me

This is my first post, so i'll make it big yet quick, just a little description of myself. Well I am currently 17, turnin 18 in January on the 10th, I adore Anime, love reading Manga and I love art (Poetry, drawing, writing etc.) I like seeing what goes on through someones head, i like to see what they see. So i thought i would make this blog to show what goes on through my head, or better yet what goes on through my life. So this first post i will go through with my past and i'd like to see what you all think about me. I promise you all, i am NO liar and would like to be remembered as who i am. So where to start, i was born, thats a good start, umm, i had 4 different types of cancer, blood, kidney, stomach and a cancer/tumor thing in my back. I beat them all but sadly they screwed up my body, the system. theres my health description. heres more, my father raised me until i was 8, i was daddy's little girl until he passed away, my mom now is more in my life but we will never have that mother daughter bond like most people, but i am greatful she is in my life and i am not out alone in a group home doing drugs like a lot of kids these days. I also had a brother, he would be about my age now but a couple months younger, he also passed away, but he was only a baby. well thats most my past, i was disowned by both my mothers side and fathers side of my families, i am supposed to die when i am 20 which is 2 yrs and i still manage to stay in school. i got pregnant just 5 months ago but i didnt keep it, i was forced to abort, i had a gun to my head, also my mother pushed me into it and the father had left when i told him. i went through 14 boyfriends so i know love and a good chunk of life already, i now am engaged to a wonderful man and he would like to help me, he understands me more then anyone ever has. we plan to have a child soon, this weekend were actually going to start, losing my last baby i was devistated. so theres a new thing you had learned today, do NOT listen to anyone, make your own decisions, if you dont then i promise you, you wont be happy. i am a follower, not a leader, i try but i find it so much easier to follow, but now im trying to step up and be the better person i can be. well this is it with this blog, i will make another next monday, so every monday ill do a life update, what goes on during my day, tuesdays i will update random things, ill have something new everyday so you all wont be bored, but check back every Monday to know whats goin on my past week. please follow me and everything